"In Your Absence I Find Value"

The opening of this is so relatable for me, "shoulders to lean on are hard to come by. I know because there were times I would have broken my own neck just so that I'd have one of my own to cry own." I feel that everyone has been in a place in there life where they feel alone and they want someone to talk to and yet no one is around so you just cry alone. I am confused whether or not this is a recent break up poem or if he trying to find a way to tell someone that he still loves and cares for them. In away maybe it's both, they broke up and they are trying to find away to still be in each others life. I love visual of his eyeballs and how he is stopping himself from crying from everyday. I like the excerpt that sounded as if he stopped and just talked to her "or do that thing that drives you crazy and by that, I mean you literally for crazy when I call you 'cranky pants'". A part of me hopes that everything works out and I don't even know if this is based on a true story, but looking back on a past poem "Strawberries" it is.